damn...what a mess!!!
...this blog. it was like a decade since I posted my last blog... i cant think of anything to write although ive got so many things in my mind... but i dunno where to start.
i want to have a new blog design... but i dont want to just get the free template somewhere and use it... i want to create my own design.. but viola, i dunno how to do it...
...my place. when you go to my place now... i wont allow you. you can see clothes anywhere (clean and unclean). you can see dust, paper, anything... my flat was in a BIG mess... i hope my flatmate will be back.. it's not that she cleans the house often, it just that, i am forced to clean the house, because she won't clean it... weird noh?
...my work. got so many things that needs to be done... so many work that was not documented. all were in my mind... i wish i could file my braincells on the working paper so that when my manager has a question, the working paper will talk and explain all the things that was left undocumented.
...my life. i dunno what to do with my life... got no plans or whatsoever... and it is frustrating.. when i was still in school, i know that after that, i need to prepare for the board exam and look for work afterwards.. now... i have no idea... i could not think of anything... oh well, my plans before... it was like... at my age now, i should have already my own family... but how could i do that? the main ingredient is missing... ive got no bf (to be the potential spouse)... am i stuck with my current situation? i don't want to be in this situation all my life... i wanna move on.. i wanna have plans... but i could not move on...
oh well, how could i get out of this mess??? hayyy....
hopefully.. soon ...
in god's name, i trust.. amen...
